Wow 4 months has flown by, but I’m back too it, I haven’t actually sat down to write anything for a long time, it’s been an interesting few months that’s for sure we (mum and I) have been attending and booking, Mind, Body and Spirit events and even have some lined up for next year which is exciting. I want to talk a bit about my self – talk and TBP today as it’s something that we all have in one form or another, my self talk has been my sticking point for so long that the habit has proven tough to crack even using TBP Daily, so I found myself questioning if TBP was working for me or not, but I kept balancing daily, knowing deep down that it truly does work and having experienced first hand its effects. Somehow I have managed let my self – talk spiral out of control again, anyway about 3 weeks ago I joined in an online talk with Trainer Donna Nash and she said if its not working then you’re not doing it enough not directed at me particularly but something clicked (clearly a reflection) So I’ve stepped up my balance game since then and I have been Balancing my self – talk, it’s been interesting to say the least so a this last week has been particularly wobbly but last Tuesday I suddenly realised WHAT AM I DOING???? I stopped and thought “I have to stop this now!” I grabbed my cards and almost fell over I was so out of balance, but that’s what The Balance Procedure is for to get back in the flow, I also put my headphones on and found a motivational talk by Les Brown on YouTube and listened to that I balanced with My Life path card, The art of Transformation and the art of Independence. Within minutes I felt the relief wash over me and I continued to Balance every 15 for a few hours then every 30 minutes until bed then I balanced until I fell asleep, and have been balancing with fervour for the last couple of days also listening to motivational talks taking action to change my mindset and I can feel the difference so sharply between I can’t do this, what am I doing to and feeling like I have no energy, to, I AM going to do this, I can do this and even better I AM Doing it already and what else can I do to keep moving forward. Wowee does that feel so much better!! By taking action and making the decision to do something about how I was feeling I have started asking more questions like; Do I always want to be the person who gives up on himself or do I want to be the person who makes a difference to his own life? Well the answer was actually quite simple when It came to it. We all have that self – talk running even if we are not aware of it, personally my self – talk can do allsorts of interesting things, like keep me awake at night playing conversations (ones that hadn’t even taken place yet) over and over 50 different ways and back again if I let it, and it, had been like that for as long as I can remember constantly leaving me in my flight or fight mode, it wasn’t until I did an event at the weekend and I had a conversation with someone who was quite, lets say; resistant, and I felt what it was like to drop back into the flight mode, so I balanced there and then and within 15 minutes I felt more calm and relaxed, this for me was so interesting because I had not encountered such a strong reaction for so long that I had forgotten what it felt like, and what is more amazing is that I cant believe I lived in that state for 2 plus years, and that’s the moment I truly realised how much my life had changed because even though I have had dips in my energy and felt like things weren’t happening I am no longer living in that constant state of fight or flight which is absolutely amazing.
Yesterday I was clever I wanted to change the world, Today I am wise so I am changing myself – Rumi